teared in silence
Posted on: Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Posted at: 11:57 PM
I jus looked at my mirror....my eyes so red and watery...i cant believe i just teared in silence...i felt really really upset...and still i feel like tearing...i just quarrel with my parents again....for whatever reason there is...im always the one who's wrong right...

the moment we stop quarelling....i teared instantly.....i jus needed someone to be there...but i guess no one was there after all....so in silence i jus keep to myself....sometimes i wonder if there really is a difference with me around...When i think about it,without me...there'll be less problems and troubles...i guess needing me is something that even my parents take for granted..

they always compare me to other people...saying im the worst child ever...and thinking about that...i even feel like crying now....you know what i felt when i started tearing?

i felt like going to the kitchen and stabbing myself...i've been likethat since the quarrells began,always wanting to end things quickly....but when i think about it...it is unfair to not only me but people who at least still care about me...just my selfishness alone can cause people to be upset...hais...always being the one to be blamed,always accused...never getting a trust that you need...life's never easy....and of all this time..... no one was there....when i felt the worse...